Recently I’ve been trying to allow myself to feel okay with being single and alone. Not in a sad way. Just in a healthy way. I’ve struggled with feeling lonely and desperately wanting a boyfriend for so long, that it’s come to the point where most everyone around me keeps saying “It’ll happen when you aren’t looking”, or “when you least expect it, that hot guy you’ve been wanting will appear”.

Okay, fine, maybe that’s true if so many people keep telling me that, but it gets to the point where it’s just incredibly irritating. Why do I have to wait and play it off like I’m not searching for someone?

I’ve just decided to fake it till I make it though. Sometimes that’s what’s needed to get by, as sad and annoying as it is. So until this guy shows up, I’m going to try and focus more on myself, the few friends I have, and hopefully on my writing. I haven’t been doing enough of it and I feel kind of sad that more creativity hasn’t been flowing from me.

I have requests on my Kpop blog, but I can’t get myself to do them. I want to write, but at the same time I feel incredibly lazy. What should I write? If anyone has any suggestions or requests, please do let me know!

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